As most of you know, Chris and I have been waiting for some test results for a good week and a bit and thankfully will be recieving them sooner than later.
During this period of time though, I have discovered yet again that I am not a patient person and am very quick to jump to conclusions, most ofte assuming the worst.
I have been struggling a great deal with my own level of faith and trust.. I Have faith, believing that God has the best intentions for me and will see me through whatever comes our way. I don't seem to have much trust though that it will be okay.
I get that God will make all things good for his Glory, but I don't trust.. at least I dont think I trust enough that it wil be okay with me. Does this make sense to anyone?
Im sure in a few days it will all make sense to me and I may regret my vulnerability,though like Reed said, we have a safe group of friends with whom we can bare our souls.
Thats enough for now
6 comments:
It makes sense to me. Sometimes it's hard to trust that what's good to God is going to feel good to us. Sometimes it really doesn't. I love you Jen, and I'm praying for you both.
Thanks Gray
It makes sense to me too The Wife...Total sense!!
You couldn't be more clearer if you were a diamond in the mud.
Praying for the __ of you.
I know exactly what you mean... I have been doing a lot of the same questioning...and doubting.. and wondering...and very glad that we serve a Lord who lets us rant & rave at Him and even about Him. A God who understands even before we do it! Love ya!!
Mum
Jen,
The cool thing about being a daughter of the King is He lets us question and struggle. He draws us closer in those times. You think you are being unfaithful but you all the while are in constant prayer and dialouge with your Abba Father. Those are the times we pour out our hearts and realize how much we need Him. To ask what is your plan Lord? is just human. If we had peace, understanding, and wisdom about everything we wouldn't value when we are without and he grants it to us.
Love to you!!
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